3 days in

I’ve battled with porn/masturbation addiction for YEARS. Going on 10 years I’ve consistently watched porn or jerked off multiple times a week. For about 2 years now it’s put a huge strain on my marriage. It’s made my wife feel like she’s not enough, and her self confidence has been destroyed. Because of me. I’ve lied to her for a long time about my continuation of it, and she will find out my lies every couple months and we will get into a huge fight over it. We both are left feeling worse about the situation and I don’t know if I can ever get her to trust me again. Joining this app is the first step I’ve ever taken towards trying to stop this longtime addiction I have. I want to stop, and I’m committed to stopping. But I’m worried that my wife won’t even believe I have. I want to get back to having a trusting relationship with her, and having sex with her. I miss her. I miss connecting with her that way. I guess I’m just feeling defeated and wondering how I can show her after all this time of lying to her over and over again that this time is different and I’m committed to fixing this strain in our marriage.