Wake up call

Recently had the chance to reconnect with someone I used to be really close to. We talked a lot about our past and relationship while being very open. I began to recognize that the addiction doesn't just harm me, it's harms the people around me with how I act and treat them. I felt disgusting. I felt selfish. I want to be better for them. Now when I think about relapsing I think about them, and how I indirectly hurt them so much, without them even knowing. Guess it's what I needed. Don't give up!