The feeling of relapse on a 37 day streak

I was on a streak of 37 days no fap and no porn. I was proud of myself. This addiction I have since i was 12 years old. So it means a lot to be clean for more then a month. But yeah i can make excuses all I want i just was not strong enough to continue to streak. I am going to try again and i Will get my streak so big with the help of the lord. I just wanna say , if you think about relapse tonight I don’t care how many days your free from porn. It is not worth it believe me.