15 years since that night where I would watch porn and masturbate for the first time. 15 years where I knew nothing but failure. After failure. After failure. Guys, I Can’t do this anymore. I am done. This thing consumed so much precious things that I Will never recover. God only knows. But as long as I breathe I will fight. I am almost ruining my marriage. Please pray for me. I have to win this battle. But sometimes I feel like a lost cause. Lord, you know everything. Please, don’t let me down here in this hell. But save me! I need you.