Wanted to try once a week
I wanted to try jacking once a week to see how that affected me. No matter what I wanted to think or feel, my true belief was right. It’s not good to watch porn or jack. I was on a 5 day streak and felt incredible! And of course after trying the “once a week jack” o felt like complete shit the next day. Had continuous bad thought, felt awkward and like an Alien at work. Only been 2 days since but all the good feelings are coming back. I feel confident, strong and more manly, and not like an alien in social settings. I was never big on porn and before would justify that jacking without porn is okay. But it’s honestly not. Find hobbies for yourself to keep you focused and something to look forward to. The mornings can be tough but you can’t rot in bed. Just get out of bed and start your day. For me I go to the gym first the in the morning and golf when I can. This has helped a lot. As well as turning to God and praying. Someone posted about God is not going to give his daughter to marry if we are married to lust. This really hit home for me. We need to stay the course and believe. God has a plan for all of us and by jacking is only pushing us further from God and our loved ones. Jacking caused a lot of turmoil in my last relationship and I beat myself up everyday for it. For those of you in a relationship do don’t let porn or jacking ruin such a great and beautiful thing you have going. Me and I’m sure many others would kill to have a good relationship. This is now something that I have to love with forever. The instant gratification of jacking cost me my relationship with a girl I really loved and cared for and the instant gratification of smoking weed cost me my dream job that I have worked years to get. Don’t ice into the instant gratification or temptations it’s not worth it. Good luck boys!
I have done the same thing. No porn in 3 weeks but I’ve jacked twice. Especially the second time, it almost felt like a burning sensation, not enjoyable. No more. This is the way. Mentally I’m down a bit but that’s mostly unrelated to quitting porn. Emotionally stable. I’m outwardly more confident. Comfortable holding eye contact. Almost too non-reactive. I’ve been off alcohol for 7.5 months after a DUI and off weed for 3 months. Just start tackling these vices one at a time. Once you get a handle on one and change your identity around it, the next becomes easier, like a debt snowball. We are being made new, being prepared for a purpose greater than ourselves. Keep at it. Trust in Jesus. Know that you’re making progress and God is working in you even when you don’t see the results or feel it. Deny the lies of Satan. Pray constantly. Once you have come to encounter God and have been filled by the Holy Spirit, there is no other way. One of my favorite scriptures recently is John 6:66-69 “At this point many of his disciples turned away and deserted him. Then Jesus turned to the Twelve and asked, “Are you also going to leave?” Simon Peter replied, “Lord, to whom would we go? You have the words that give eternal life. We believe, and we know you are the Holy One of God.”