3 weeks Update

It’s been 23 days since I started my journey and while I relapsed once at 14 days and again at 21 days - I’m feeling certain ways. I believe the progress is progress and while I am upset at my relapses, I’m moving past them and getting stronger with each one. The first 13 days of my journey were amazing, I felt stronger, better, and happier, but as I get to this leg of the journey. I’m very angry, I’m anxious and confused. I have moments of urges, but overall - I feel lonelier and more distant than ever. My emotions are all over the place and I’m feeling pretty down right now. It’s hard to describe, I come from a relationship where I don’t have sex for weeks at a time because my wife does not want to. Her drive is lower than mine and I fully respect that and would never want to force her to have sex. In my heart, I don’t want to prioritize sex over all of life’s great experiences, yet I’m feeling so defeated in this moment. Has anyone else who is farther along in this journey felt this same way? I’m going to continue to fight and get better, but damn - I feel lost right now.