Age 14, 20 now

Hey there, I have been addicted since I was 14 I started watching porn out of curiosity and as a joke but it has turned into something serious. I spent most of teenage years feeling lonely and extremely anxious 24/7 Especially around my palms would sweat, face headache due to the fact I’m overthinking,shallow breathing, tightness in my stomach, and negative thoughts, and the inability to think I swear I genuinely wasn’t able to tap into my brain it’s like I left my own body and watching demon control it all because I’m around people truly no one deserves to feel this way but At the time I used to watch it on a daily so ofc actions have consequences but I found the gym to cope with my anxiety at the age of 18 and I’ve managed to get pretty jacked I’m 180 lbs and 5’10 14% straight muscle.thinking that would make me more attractive and get me real girls but all it did was put a kiddy bandage on a massive wound. I had a few rushes of confident now after hitting the gym but I still felt the same now it’s worst because I’m 20 and an adult I’m jacked but still anxious as hell I’ve been trying to ignoring nofap thinking it’s a stupid obsession that I’ll magically quit one day but that that day never came so With that being said that’s my story and I’m ready to improve I do it on average every 3 days a massive improve from the daily when I first started but I watch more aggressive porn now and the sessions are much longer abt 3 sometimes 4 hours so it’s worst.