Are you in this current cycle? 👇

Feeling quite tempted to relapse currently but I feel in control right now so thought it would be a great time to reflect on previous patterns. Curious to see if others have been the same in this situation below. I’m on a 17 day streak currently (longest in at least a year). I had always found myself in the same 1-2 day loop: 1. Be “in control” and be bored on phone or tired coming home. 2.Have a voice in my head telling me to watch porn and immediately lose control/give into the voice. 3. Watch porn. 4. feel absolutely god awful about myself and promise myself that was the last time. 5. Repeat. I really couldn’t trust myself at all, I was not in control of my thoughts or actions at all. Completely addicted and it was seriously effecting every other aspect of my life. The last 17 days have been some of the clearest, most confident and progressive days I’ve had in a long time. And the longer I go without relapsing, the easier it gets to control temptations and channel that energy elsewhere. So my advice for someone stuck in this horrible cycle… become VERY intentional and tangible about your addiction. By that I mean don’t treat your recovery as a secret like your addiction. Put restrictions across your devices, recognise if you have a relapsing pattern and come up with a plan BEFORE to avoid becoming tempted in the first place, or to save yourself if tempted to relapse. Good luck. Turn your life around.